Status: I’m love stoned I could swear
Music: Lovestoned – Justin Timberlake | I Will Remember You – Ryan Cabrera
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Have you ever felt something sooo INTENSE you feel like you are going to blow anytime? Well, that’s what I’m feeling right now. That’s what I’ve been feeling since I met this guy. I have never felt something like this before. This is the beginning of a potential obsession.
You know the Mr. Perfect I painted on my mind when I was still naive and then later on, I realised he couldn’t possibly exist? The type that would make me fly to Amsterdam and get married as soon as possible? That’s him.
When I first laid eyes on him, I was shocked because he looked so mighty familiar. I had dreamt about him since the very minute I turned bisexual. But then he was imaginary and unreal. And now, I met him. My Mr. Perfect. (Yeah, I know nobody’s perfect but I’m sure you get me.)
When I first saw him, I told myself, “This can’t be real. He can’t be real.” I created a picture of my Mr. Perfect in my head, and then I found someone who looks EXACTLY like him. “He can’t be real.” But he is.
Every time I see him, I freeze and melt on the spot. I feel like I would do anything just to have him. ANYTHING. And the funny part is, I think he notices his effect on me — sublime, excruciating and mortifying, all at the same time.
The sad part part is, I know that nothing I do can make that possible. Argh. I think he’s straight.
But sooner or later, I will get him. Someday, he will be mine. (Naks! Conviction!) In the meantime, I shall divert my attention to something more useful. Like beer. Or blogging. Or other guys.
“…And now I walk around without a care.
He’s got me hooked; It just ain’t fair, but I…
I’m love stoned and I could swear that he knows
Think that he knows, oh, oh
He knows, he knows…”
PS: Contrary to what you might be thinking right now, hindi ito libog. This is sooo beyond lust. He’s charming and smart. He’s my Mr. Perfect.
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oi congratz.
atleast ngayon, kumbinsido na akong marunong magmahal ang sir yoshke ko. remember you asked me why i wished to God na bigyan ka ng gift of courage? kasi po, gusto kong pag dumating na yung pagkakataong kagay nito, magkaroon ka ng lakas na ipaalam at ipaglaban ang nararamdaman mo.
balitaan nyo pa po kami ng susunod na mga mangyayari. maghihintay ako. hapee sabado po
waaaah. to be honest, this is not a good feeling, so hindi ko ma-absorb yung congrats mo, haha.
This intense feeling makes me sad. Sad. Sad.
naiintindihan kita. alam ko rin yung pakiramdam na ganyan. nasa iyo naman ang desisyon kung ipagpapatuloy mo yan o hindi. pero masarap magmahal, kahit hindi ito masuklian……
well maybe you’re right. im not brave enough for that.
I surely know that that is not lust…I am convinced. I had the same experience before and it was so difficult because, back then, I so did not know what to do. Like, he came when I was still trudging down the phase-lane, the time when I just went out of the already-open closet while recovering from a sad, sad breakup. But unlike yours, he was far from being perfect at all. He was no straight but still, I didnt “get” him…perhaps because I was too afraid to push my luck to far then. I have no regreats, though.
waaaah. ang sad naman nung kwento mo.. sana hindi mangyare saken…
salamat sa paniniwala na hindi ito libog lang gaya ng sabi ng mga friends ko.
wow! highschool may secret love, kakakilig! hahaha! Pano ba yan hanggang tingin ka na lang! Good luck bro!
oh well, ganyan talaga, hanggang tingin na lang. ANG SAAAAD. SASABOG NA AKO!!!
Aliw naman. Hehe. From the suppressor king, natutuwa ako sayo.
wag ka matuwa. ANG LUNGKOT LUNGKOT KO EH. Tas matutuwa ka saken?! EVIL KA! hahaha
i have the perfect song for this, syempre aside from your own song for mr. perfect:
“Sometime, somewhere,
we just have to be content with stealing glances
somehow, content with saying nothing,
smiles that are always wanting.
Though deep inside it hurts because we know…”
ah, alam mo na yun, ambassador yoshke.
“I think he’s straight.” – so anticlimactic.
waaaaaaaaaw. ganda. ano title nyan?
Sometime, Somewhere by Maestro Ryan Cayabyab.
OMFG! I love this song! The Regine Velasquez version, though. But anyhow, I still love it. I’m gonna put that in my top ten, or twenty, list of songs.
How you describe it here, indeed seems like a movie. Just enjoy and cherish dat feeling u have. And totoo, mas maganda f u catch d fish itself, hehehe.
i know a’right? haha. amd i will not just catch the fish, I WILL EAT THE FISH!!!
I am thinking that you’re falling in love and love from one side is pretty hurtful. I have had it and now I am happy that I met a guy of my life. But I think you should try to tell him about your feelings or you will regret that you didn’t try for the rest of your life. Good luck!
wow, im happy for you.
and no, this is not love. not yet.
Yoshke, given the right place, right time and the right mood, anybody can turn gay even for a moment. The great Kurt Cobain wasn’t kidding when he sang: “What else could I say, everyone is gay.” –his prophecy coming true right before our eyes. =D goodluck!
well, if that’s the case, this is gonna be TOUGH. I think he’s a difficult guy to “convert”. Hahahhaha
libog yan. HAHAHAHA. joke.
the day you turned bisexual… haha.
yes? so anong problema mo sa “the day i turned bisexual..” KZ, ha? ha? answer me!!! hahaha
i’m having an inkling that this Mr. Perfect has a name, and his name is JOSH. yoshke, i thought you’re giving Josh to moi? you’re so madaya.
just kidding, of course.
you go
gurl, eryoshke. i’ve met my mr. perfect before. too bad, we have to let each other go.‘lul. hindi si josh yan. Little brother ko si josh no. ang incestuous naman nun.
“Have you ever felt something sooo INTENSE you feel like you are going to blow anytime?”
UMM, yes, ive felt that a lot of times and dunnit to other boys as well. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
that’s not the kind of blow im talking about obviously.
pero pwede rin. hahahaha
yoshke, yes i know that feeling! and you know what i did, I grabbed the opportunity. now the two of us are happy together. may you find your happiness yoshke. we all deserve to be happy.
i’m happy for you mikkoi.
i wish i had as much courage.
“hindi libog lang…” so may libog pa rin. Hehehe. But I know, pwede naman magsabay ang love and lust.
Mahirap kaya magmahal ng walang lust. Pero wala rin namang wenta kung puro lust lang if you aim for a real relationship.
Love man yan or lust, sana maging kayo para everybody happy.
syempre may libog pa rin, ang corny naman pag wala. HAHAHAHA
agree ako kay kz. libog lang yan! hehehe.
but i wish you luck! 
believe me, this is sooooo not libog. Bakit ba ayaw nyo maniwala? huhu
Oy Tish, mukha ba akong PERV?!?!?! hahaha
@Yoshke on “Mukha ba kong PERV?”
Yoshke:
“Mirror, Mirror on the wall,
Who’s the PERV-est of them all?”
Mirror:
“Ayan o! Nasa harap mo na! Tse!”
— hehehe! joke lang!
huy hindi a, hindi ako perv no. ang good boy, good boy ko kaya.
Well I think that must be a really good but scary feeling. I never imagined a Mr. Perfect for me, I prefer to go with the flow…Sometimes I think my boyfriend is the one but I prefer not to rush things. I just wait and see ^^
Good luck
I actually think that what you’re doing is the right thing to do.
Oh well, I’m just, uh, crazy.