Freezing Point
Monday April 14, 2008 12:21 | 580 views
Status: Leavin’.
Music: How Far We’ve Come – Matchbox Twenty | This is the Last Time – Keane
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I feel cold. I mean that literally. Right now, the cold wind from the air-conditioner is blowing towards my cube as always. Not to mention that I walked from C5 corner Ortigas Avenue, where my sister had dropped me off, to the office (Pearl Drive/San Mig Avenue) early in the morning. Oh yeah, someone was so stupid he walked for 30 minutes in the rain. I don’t know what spirit possessed my body that made me do that but I enjoyed it immensely. Currently, I’m wearing a sweater and I am still shaking. Wuuu.
This is the coldest day since I started working here. Interestingly, today is my last day here. Yep, it’s final. There have been several attempts but this time, I’m really quitting. I already sent my resignation letter two weeks ago. I can’t really explain how I feel right now. A part of me is relieved because I’ve wanted to leave since, er, my second month here. A part of me is sad because, hey, I made a lot of friends here. At the end of the day, it still boils down to money. Would love to have a lot of friends and a lot of money at the same time but the terrible pay here makes it impossible to use the words “happy” and “salary” in one sentence. Oops, I think I just did.
This resignation is also one of my desperate attempts to start a new life. I have no idea why I have been saying “new life” over and over again recently. It’s not as if I’m a drug user or a prostitute and I need to put the past behind. Maybe it’s because I think my life is in disarray now that I need to reassess myself. I need time to reflect and rearrange my cluttered life. Quitting is always difficult. Starting anew is always difficult. But heck, I gotta start somewhere. This is somewhere.
Anyway, I just want to thank all the people who redefined the word “officemate” for me in the six months that I stayed here. They were the only reason I had been choosing to stay. Now that almost everyone I love here is floating out the window, it’s time that I jump out. Blag.
RJ, you’re the nicest boss in the world. Not cutest. Just nicest. Hey, nicest ain’t bad.
Aika, thanks for all our secret-sharing moments. You are officially the keeper of my Pandora’s box. Thank you for the kindness.
Bridget, you are the team’s joy. Without you, Qool Media will be gloomy for sure. Your tactlessness will not be forgotten.
Debbie, you have no idea how you have been an inspiration to me. Unknowingly, you have motivated me. Whenever I sob and think how messed up my life is, I think of you and I realise I’m still fortunate. You are the first person to talk to me here. Thank you for that.
Anne, thank you for my daily dose of reality check. For the pieces of advice and the bits of knowledge, you truly made me a better man, albeit lustful. Still, better.
Bryan, for all the time you offered help.
Arnel, for being my rebound and for putting up with all my flirtatious stints. Haha.
Kristel, you are the very definition of a friend. Thank you.
Jon, for setting aside your homophobia to be my friend, I salute and thank you, chairman.
Coco, for all the good times during and after office hours.
Chemae, for putting me on the spot during the never-have-I-ever game. Haha.
Alfred, masaya ka lang kasama. Parang yung “funny uncle” pag family reunion. Ganun ka.
Jeanie, my baby, for being so nice and kind to me. Don’t worry, the word about your sarcastic boobs will stay here in this office. Haha.
Elaine and Chemae, sa pag-breakfast together.
Paul, sa yosi moments.
Rica and Staci, sorry this happened too soon. We could have bonded longer.
To the quiet guy (who used to stand) behind Debbie, you will be missed, too. Even though you had already moved to another area inside the office.
And to YOU, you know who you are. (Hey, you were also an officemate.) Thank you for the wonderful times together. For being such a nice guy. For making me feel that I look good. That I’m smart. That I’m worthy of being loved. Thank you for being mine. Short-lived but thanks, anyway.
To the entire Qool Media team, THANK YOU for the images we made together that I would be happy to look back at. Those are beautiful images.
Damn, it’s cold in here.
image courtesy of oregonlive.com
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bry
aww, yun lang nasabi ko. awww. *sad face*
Yoshke
waaaah. bry, mamimiss ko kayo. wuuuuu.
Ken
I feel the same way too… *sigh*
Yoshke
you feel cold? okay lang yan, hot ka naman para saken. wahahaha. tangena.
Jake
kaya mo yan, ganyan lang talaga, bata ka pa, marami pang darating, lol
Yoshke
haha. parang iba nga yung pagkakaintindi ko dito e. parang hindi work-related.
Jake
oops, parang iba yung meaning nung “lol” ko, ang ibig kong sabihin, maraming pang darating na problema sa buhay, hindi nakakatawa ‘yun diba? but that’s reality, take it from me
Yoshke
don’t worry. didn’t misinterpret it. pero it’s funny. haha
Aika
yoshke, i didn’t think you were this sentimental. haha. but thanks (ed. do not start sentences with a conjunction) also for all the images, for the file sharing moments, for keeping secrets, for being a friend–a gay friend that is! Magkikita pa tayo at hindi mo pa kami nayayaya sa batangas o palawan. hmp. i already miss you while writing this.
>:D
Yoshke
niyayaya ko naman kayo ah. isa lang naman ang kundisyon ko, hindi kasama si bridget. BAWAL ANG TAKLESA SA BATANGAS! hahaha
frances
welcome to the let’s-cross-this-transition-mode club and start anew. shet, nararamdaman mo rin ba yung mixed na kaba at saya? and yes, onting lungkot (pero onti lang)
Yoshke
Gawd. I hate transition periods. haha
jamestoned
I wish all the best for you and your endeavors. I agree 100% that it all boils down to money. There is nothing more professional than accepting better opportunities. Occasionally we question, we get lost–same thing happens to me. But that’s exactly what Shirley MacLaine wrote in her book “Out On a Limb”, my autobiography is not just my life. It’s my many lives.
You are hardworking and a perfectionist. Your arrogance is healthy. I’m sure wherever it is you’re heading, you’ll be there. The matchstick girl dying in the cold is a fairy tale. In real life, she’ll mug somebody and steal their wallet and jacket.
That’s life
Yoshke
wahahahahahahahahahaha. Natawa ako dito. I sweaaar.
jamestoned
haha I knew it You’ll react… I swear
Yoshke
ahaha, at dun lang talaga ako nagreact sa dami ng sinabi mo. haha
jamestoned
By the way Yoshke, sana makapunta U sa Chaikofi, Robinson’s Pioneer (sa Boni Ave lang). May get together… date is Apr. 25 (friday 7-10 pm). Dinner eto punta U… pls. Thanks
Yoshke
sige, try ko. sa batangas pa ko manggagaling if ever eh. wuuuu.
Bitchy Editor
Yoshke, I never thought I’d say this. But I miss you.
i also miss your writing and the enjoyable task of editing your articles.
i hope to see you soon.
…yun nalang… i know you get what i’m saying and how hard it is for me to say it.
Yoshke
ayan, nagkita na tayo! WAG NA EMO! hehe. joke.
jeanie
wahahah! i just read your blog now! sweetie, even if everyone in the office keeps quiet about my sarcastic boobs, its now on yoshke.com and out in the world! hahaha!
Yoshke
hahaha. they don’t know naman kung sinong Jeanie eh. Andami kayang Jeanie sa mundo. Malay ba nila na si Jeanie Sison ang tinutukoy ko. WAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
debbiednieto
at ngayon ko lang ‘to nabasa. at tamang timing lang. at naluha ako. ha ha.