I’m staying at my co-owned Internet cafe and there’s a bunch of insufferably noisy kikay girls here, who are really having a hard time logging into friendster.com. They have been spending the last 10 minutes trying to figure out why their window keeps on displaying The page cannot be displayed.

My only prayer is for them to realise they have been typing “freindster,” instead of “friendster.”

No, I’m sooo not gonna tell them. We’re not “freinds.” Ha. Ha. Ha.

Status: Robi-happy.
Music: Feedback - Janet Jackson | Leavin’ - Jesse McCartney

Here I go again. Starting to get hooked on the show I always curse at. Haha. What is it exactly with PBB that always gets me addicted despite the number of times I have been disappointed and felt cheated by the show? Grrrrr. But anyway, Ima uphold voyeurism and power-tripping. After Lobo, no one can get between my eyes and my TV or whoever stupid enough to do that will certainly know how hard the four corners of my remote control really are.

Anyway, I HAVE A NEW CRUSH!!! Hahaha. His name is Robi Domingo. Damn, I adooore him. Hmmm. I remember, last teen season, I was rooting for Mikee Lee. I don’t know why but Mikee really had an unexplainable effect on me. Robi has, too. But much stronger. I can’t put a finger on what exactly it is with Robi and Mikee that gets me but heck, i loooov’em. They’re both Ateneans. But I swear, their school has nothing to do with it. Maybe it’s their “scholarly” characters. Dunno.

I also like Josef Elizalde, Nan Clenuar, Ejay Falcon, Alex Anselmuccio, Priscilla Navidad, Beauty Gonzales and Linda Backlund. The others, er… we’ll see.

I would love to share what I think about the other housemates but I haven’t absorbed their personalities yet. Perhaps, in the coming days. I will post a more decent entry about PBB Teen Edition and the other housemates soon. For now, just let me express how much crush Robi. Haha.

image courtesy of Pinoy Big Brother Teen Edition Plus (ABS-CBN, Endemol) and pinoymoneytalk.com

Jordin Sparks is making it BIG. “Tattoo,” the first single off her debut album, peaked at #8 on the US Billboard Hot 100 chart, while her latest release “No Air” currently sits at a comfortable #6.

Now, I wonder, where are those people who spat on Jordin’s win, claiming that Blake Lewis would sell much better post-American Idol? Hmmm. You can choke now. Hehe. (Kidding.)

Don’t get me wrong, I like Blake, too. It’s just that, you know… I told you so.
image courtesy of the-protagonist.net

Status: Starved.
Music: So Close - Jon Mclaughlin

It’s Victor’s 22nd birthday today. (Yes, he was born just when thousands of people gathered in EDSA for the first People Power Revolution in 1986.)

Victor is my bestfriend. He’s been my bestest friend since Kindergarten. Seriously. We’ve known each other since we were four. That makes us friends for almost 18 years. That’s 4/5 of our lives. Hehe. So today, I just wanna greet him.

He has no idea that this blog exists, thus there is very little chance he’d come across this post but what the heck? Yep, Victor doesn’t know I blog because he doesn’t have to know about my sexuality. Hehehe. Some bestfriend I am.

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I was born nine days after Victor. But since it’s leap year, my birthday is still 10 days away. Hmmm. This is the first time I’m gonna do this: make my own wishlist. Hehe. Come on, it’s my birthday. Just let me do this.

a new football / soccer ball
a fashionable vest
a small sling bag
a pair of tennis rackets
a Giordano or Diego shirt (yeah, brand matters)
Bvlgari Aqva perfume
a pirated DVD showcase (hehehe)
Gerard Butler (yum)
Christian Bale (yum, yum)

and you. You know who you are. I want you for my birthday. haha.

Well, that’s all. See? I’m not even that materialistic. Haha.

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Anyway, since we’re already talking about birthdays, let me just say that February is one of my favorite months. Unlike January with which I’ve always had a love-hate relationship, Feb has been consistently kind to me. Aside from that, most of my friends said their first hellos to the world in these months.

1 - Josh De Beauvoir, Dah Venturanza
6 - Victor Villanueva
10 - Sol Garcia, Aina Pacion
14 - Robin Rodriguez
21 - Andre Montejo
24 - Rico Pangilinan
26 - Jumel Alilio, Ces Vitan
27 - Pam Condeno, Jordan Santos
28 - Hermann Claravall

So there. Happy birthday to y’all.

Status: keep bleeding love.
Music: Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis, Love Song - Sara Bereilles

I know Dohna has already posted this video on her blog but I just want to share this to my readers, too. This is sooooo cute. Watch it now, now, NOW!!!

My Gawd! Life is so unfair! That little boy has a friggin’ love life?!?! And I? Ugh, I’d rather not mention. Haha.

Anyway, Happy Valentine’s Day, everyone!

Yoshke is back. I am sooo back.

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Year 2007 came to a close pleasantly. It was so good to me. In fact, it was the best year of my life. Years of resentment ended. Nice closures. New environment. New people. New business. New job. New achievements. New opportunities. New life.

2008 should be promising a fuckin’ wonderful year ahead. But right now, I am not happy. I look happy but I am not. I just feel so miserable inside. Something died. I wish I could say that I have no idea what robbed me of the happiness I had long kept in my hands. But I know exactly what it is.

Yes, I am back. But I left something in 2007 and I need it back. Badly.

The truth is, I feel like I’m on the brink of depression. Seriously.

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“If I were thinking clearly, I would tell you that I wrestle alone in the dark, in the deep dark, and that only I can know. Only I can understand my condition.”
— Virginia Woolf in The Hours

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I am back.

Status: I guess I’m dreamin’ again.
Music: Crush Crush Crush - Paramore

Since I’m agnostic and I’m still yet to decide if God really exists or not, may I ask those who are sure that He exists to pray for me for two reasons:

1. The second part of my Foreign Service Exams is just a couple of days away. It’ll be from December 19-21 (Wednesday to Friday). The truth is, I still haven’t opened my books because I’ve been busy with work. I need to review so baaad. So those of you who want to give me some moral support, I’ll be at Gloria Jean’s or Starbucks in Tomas Morato from Monday to Tuesday the whole day (and night). Haha. Nah, really. Coz I can’t study at my apartment — too much distractions around. Waaaaah. I don’t even know why I’m blogging right now. I’m supposed to be reading the ASEAN Charter.

2. Another damn reason I need your prayers is my freakin’ nape. The back of my neck has been giving me the torture of the century for some unknown reason. And it’s not just nape pains. It comes with terrible headache and dizziness — complete package. It’s been bothering me at work for two weeks now.

I went to the hospital and had a check-up. They checked my blood pressure — normal. They took an X-ray of my cervical spine (I believe that’s “neck” in English, haha) — nothing there. They told me that since both tests produced negative results, it could only be one of two things: an eye problem or stress. I really think it’s the latter coz I visit my ophthalmologist regularly and the last time he checked, my vision was 20-20 and perfectly normal except for a couple of cracks on my right lens. MMMkey. The doctor said that I should take some good rest and if nothing changed after a week, then I should come back.

Here’s the problem. How am I gonna take some rest when my exam is just two days away? But if I don’t rest, how am I gonna answer those damn questions well when my nape and head feel like they are gonna explode anytime? But if I rest, how am I gonna study for the exam? And if I don’t take some rest, how am I gonna take the test? And if I take some rest, how about my test? And if don’t rest… Damn, we’re going in circles here. But you do understand my problem, don’t you? It’s a chicken-egg thing. Pffffft.

REST or TEST?! Either way, I’m dead. You see, I need your prayers. If you’re an atheist, just wish me luck. That will do.
image courtesy of nicholsoncartoons.com.au