Status: Sad… Very
Music: Blind - Lifehouse

It’s been almost a year since we met in a very huge, yet strange place where we are both free. During our first months, I thought frequency could shorten the miles and the hours between us. It did not feel we’re half quarter a world apart. We used to say that distance is just another word that doesn’t even matter. And we became emotionally close. But now, I’m starting to feel that distance. I guess the more you get virtually close to someone, the more you realise how physically away he is.

And it pains me now. Too bad I learned to love him. Damn it.

Status: I feel hot literally.
Music: Understand - Christina Aguilera

When asked if she was affected by some critics’ opinion that Faith Cuneta effortlessly outstaged her in one of their concerts, Regine Velasquez said something I can never forget.

“Of course not. Why should I feel insecure?
I’m freakin’ Regine Velasquez.
I’ve been in this industry for, like, forever.”

— Freakin’ Regine Velasquez

Status: Learning to spit fire.
Music: On the Radio - Nelly Furtado

Although there’s no rule, most Bulgarians nod for “no” and shake their heads for “yes”, which really confuses foreigners. Weird, huh?

Status: Starving.
Music: Jesus Take the Wheel - Carrie Underwood

After having a very interesting conversation with Kuya Tops about God, Jesus Christ and faith last night, I found myself thinking about my beliefs again. You know how much I love God but I don’t believe in Jesus’s divinity, which others find a little off and disturbing. I feel like I am a Jew stuck here in the Philippines with all the Christian Catholics looking at me in utter disgust — Oops, you might get me wrong — I’m NOT a Jew. Unknown to my very strict Catholic family, I do not consider myself a Christian. But last night, the conversation we had just made me asking if all my decisions were right.

And so I talked to God, and said:

“Lord, I know Jesus was great and all.
His teachings are all good, all wonderful, almost divine.
But I want to know if Jesus really is divine.
Is he really Your son? Let me know.
Please. Give me a sign.
If tomorrow, when I wake up,
I remember the dream I just had,
then, that’s it, I’ll be a believer again.”

Last night I had a dream that I just remembered the dream that I had had the night before.

Was that it?