From My Handwritten Journal: Not the Coffee Kind of Love

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I have no idea what had gotten into me. Maybe it was the rain or the slow ballads that I had been listening to the whole day. I was feeling a little down again, thinking about my childhood and the idea of talking to a shrink came up again but the idea did not live that long. Before I knew it, I was digging my box of old notebooks. I keep a handwritten journal. I still do. Earlier this afternoon, while trying to find something to read, I stumbled upon one of my handwritten diaries. I spent the next 30 minutes smiling, laughing, and sometimes offended by my own words. Haha. Anyway, I decided … [Read more...]

Three Years is a Long Time

Three. This year's lucky number.

Three years is a long time. In three years, a mahogany seedling could be a fully grown tree. An entry-level employee could become a supervisor or a manager, or he could resign, if he's lucky. A graduate school enrollee could finish a degree with thesis. A celebrity could rise to fame and spiral back down to oblivion.  A television network could run as many as six drama series on one primetime slot or three different variety shows at noontime in three years. Within three years after I graduated from college, I had more than three jobs. I also lived in three different apartments in … [Read more...]

Shy Guy and I: The Thought

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One romantic night, my hubby Shy Guy and I were lying in our bed. It was one of those nights when we would just drop everything we were doing and just enjoy the moment. No one was saying anything. Just exchanging glances and smiles. After a sweet long embrace and a gentle kiss, he looked at me and found me staring back at him. "Anong nasa isip mo?" he asked. I smiled, touched his face and whispered, "Antaba mo na!" … [Read more...]

My Top 100 All-Time Favorite Love Songs (Part 6)

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Just this morning, when I opened up my laptop and launched iTunes, it randomly played Leigh Nash's Need to Be Next to You. And in an instant, I was reminded of this list and that I had not posted a follow up since August last year. So here it is. This is the sixth installment of my list of 100 love songs that I am completely in love with. This batch includes singles from number 21-30. Again, this is a personal list — songs that have touched me in many ways. (Click on the title of the song to listen to it.) 30. Leigh Nash - Need to be Next to You I still haven't seen the movie Bounce, … [Read more...]

25 Months Later

25 and counting

I don't pray. I'm at the point of my life where I don't really think about spirituality. This is something that I have to discover for myself and have yet to explore. I'm not sure whether I believe in God or not. I'm just not sure. But I remember one night 25 months ago; I was walking from the MRT Ayala Station to Glorietta and I felt like with every step I made, I was losing every bit of confidence I had. I wanted something so badly that time and I was just not sure whether I would get it. I was not used to failure or rejection and it was not the right moment for a first time. … [Read more...]

HEY, YOU! (Aka My Shortest Yet Sincerest Blog Post Yet)

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. . . . We proved them wrong. Happy Second Anniversary. … [Read more...]

Pagbabago

how to break up

It was a Tuesday evening. I was walking down the street with a box containing a cake in my hands. It was her favorite. I stopped in front of her house. Turned to the door. Stopped. Lifted my left hand to knock. Hesitated. At last, I mustered all the courage to make that gentle, reluctant thumping sound as the knuckles of my hand hit the door. It opened. She was there standing in front of me. She was pretty. She was young. She was my girlfriend. We were both 19. She invited me in as I handed the cake to her. We proceeded to the dining area and she opened the box. There was an obvious … [Read more...]

What’s On My Mind?

"What's on your mind?" Every night, while lying in bed before we go to sleep and I'm unusually quiet, you'd look at me and ask, "What's on your mind?" I'd answer with a dismissing, "Wala lang. (Nothing.)" And then, we'd talk about something else. The truth is, I wasn't thinking about nothing. I was thinking about you. Have you ever wondered why I would always make sure you go to sleep before me? That's because I love looking at you while you're in dreamland. I would look at you, just look at you. And then I'd just find myself praying, "God, what good did I do to deserve him?" The … [Read more...]

We Walk Like We Rule the World

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I have always loved walking. Back in college, I never took a jeepney to go from one class to another even though the next building was on the other side of the UP Diliman campus. If I could walk, I would. There's just something in walking that is therapeutic. It's my way of reflecting on my life, planning my day, and squeezing all my creative juices out. Never mind if it takes too much time and effort. It was never tiring. But one night in February last year, almost 14 months ago, I was walking to the train station from work when I did something I had never done before while walking alone … [Read more...]

Top 10 Simple Ways to Make a Relationship Last

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Impress him. Surprise him. Cheat not. Hit not. In simpler terms, these are the most important pieces of advice on keeping a relationship. But sometimes, no matter how strictly you follow these commandments, relationships still die. Some of natural death. Why? Because we tend to overlook simpler but not any less significant things we have to remember when we are the other half of a couple. 10. When you make mistakes, say sorry. Your heart should be bigger than your ego. Pride will get your relationship nowhere. When you suddenly threw tantrums in the middle of your seventh monthsary dinner … [Read more...]