Just Did

When one of my bestfriends and I were at a resort somewhere in the south three years ago for his despedida party (he would be flying to London in less than two days), we decided to leave the crowd for a moment and stay on the beach. We were lying on the sand. I was staring at the moon and I was quite sure that he was staring at me.

He was the first to speak. “Have you given it a thought?”

“Not much,” I replied.

“Why not?”

“I don’t want to think about it.”

“Why not?”

“I just don’t. Why does it always have to have a reason?”

He didn’t utter a single word. And then he sat up and felt the grains on his palms.

Then he spoke again. “We’re bestfriends.”


“And it’s all we could ever be. We’re bestfriends. And we’re both guys.”

I just looked at him while he stared blankly at the sea. Then he somewhat rubbed his palms against his knees, and said, “So you really don’t feel anything for me? Anything more than friendship?”

“I don’t.”

Silence fell.

“You’re too honest, it hurts. You never lie. Never.”

Then the moon caught my attention again. I just stared at it for God knows how many seconds.

“I just did,” I said.

By the time I could even finish that sentence, he was already standing, about to leave. He didn’t even hear what I just said. I watched him as he walked away.

“I just did.” I whispered.

We’ve never seen each other again since.



  1. nice post as usual. very beautiful… and poignant… and moving. how i wish i could make stories like this one.. (stories lang nga ba yoshke?) 🙂

    but i was shocked, you’re like hmmm… one of us? im confused… 🙂 hope you can elucidate me on this one. hehehe.

  2. Ay ano ba yan, kakaiyak naman. But it’s still beautifully written :3

    Oo nga pala, I featured you on my blog, para sa blog day 2007! 😀

  3. kumusta naman ang themes ng iyong mga kwento, ha. puro tungkol sa friendship-na-may-romantic=love-na-di-naman-nafufulfill. haha. therefore, di yan fiction.

    • you’re back again! hehe. i always visit your blog but you seem to have forgotten the word “update.” ehehehehe. Thanks. 🙂

      Although I dont really get the Steven Spielberg part. Hehehe.

  4. ganda ng story. bilib ako sayo, parang straight guys kasi hindi nagsusulat ng ganyan eh. takot sila na magkamalang bading. pero ang tanong Is this fiction ba talaga? hehehe…

  5. asus dalang-dala ako…

    kaiyak.naiisip ko nang “ansarap magmahal”..yeah! tapos fiction.nyahaha..cool.u’r very effective..dabeststs

  6. this blog has many gems hidden within the entries ha. Gems talaga eh. ahaha. Loving the posts. Fiction man or hindi. …. *grins*

  7. even if this is something way back. i saved this post on my pc and cellphone. it kinda makes me feel a certain emotion. god knows what.

    great job yoshke, a truly wonderful job. 🙂

  8. ganda.


    how i wish i could finish stories like you did..

    hilig ko din magwrite, di naman matapos-tapos..

    so sweet 🙂

  9. hi yoshke,

    im a huge fan!! love this entry, i want more.. moorreee!!!!! congrats nga pala for winning the blowg sumthing sumthing =)

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